A Lipstick and a Hashtag

I love red. And I love a bold red lip in winter. I felt human enough to apply make up in time for the school run for the first time in weeks yesterday (back to the Jackie Os again!) and out came my trusty MAC Ruby Woo. It matches my coat!!

What came next was this selfie, which I was rather chuffed with (be it justified or not, but I think it is hehe)

I was so chuffed with it in fact it not only became my new personal profile picture but I’ve used it as a headshot for Much Loves social media pages too.

Naturally, when I uploaded it I did what so  many of us do and included a couple of hashtags. #schoolrunchic #bebold

Ooh!

I liked that.

”Be Bold”

My mind expanded it. “Be brave, be bold…”

And it’s been turning idly around in my brain ever since, like sucking on a boiled sweet

Be Brave. Be Bold…

I am feeling quite brave these days. I’ve gone through -and continue to go through-the emotional wringer big time of late and although I am so exhausted and drained I could cry sometimes from sheer fatigue and I’d swear my skins developed a grey pallor I am also fired the fuck up. There remains a strength in me. I’ve come to realise over the last couple of years I have in fact always  been rather good at brave (even if I didn’t always acknowledge it)  and I’m getting increasingly better. Oh I’m terrified half the time of course, who isn’t? I hate confrontations for example and my deep rooted instinctive responses is to avoid them. However, you know what they say

Fortunately for me, there exists a multitude  of situations and scenarios in which other impulses and emotions override my fear to summon up courage quite successfully

Anger, of course, being in the main driving seat with my hero complex on the passenger side. Outrage. A sense of something being inherently wrong. Passion. Pride,too. A sense of dignity. A person can get pretty damn far with me before hitting my sense of pride admittedly but once they meet that it’s as solid as a brick fucking wall.

So, be brave be bold…

I recalled a web designer I consulted when I was branding and developing Much Love Kirsty asking if I had a slogan other than my Much Love signature sign off

“Erm, nope. Do I need one?”

I did not, so I left it

Perhaps, I thought, this could be the new Much Love Kirsty tagline? It certainly fits in with my ethos

Alas! ‘‘Twas not meant to be

When I ran it through Google, Be Brave. Be Bold. Be You (ooh!) turned out to already be in use. Worse (for me) it was already being used as the name of a mental health website so there’s no way I can in good conscience go ahead and use it in the same field

Dammit!

Ah well..

Regardless as to whether it’s the official Much Love tagline or not courage, bravery and being bold will remain my internal mantra and I will strive towards them at all times

I will continue to be brave and I will continue to be bold in the things I choose to be bold in.

I will continue to have and hold courage for myself and for those who might need help in finding it

I will continue to have the courage to be me at all times.

I will continue to have the courage to be sincere and honest and to wear bright colours and pretty dresses

I will continue to have the courage to love whole heartedly and unconditionally

I will continue to have the courage to break the stigma

I will continue to have the courage to stand up and speak up

I will continue to have the courage to be kind

I will continue to have the courage to fight, when the time calls for it as well as striving for the wisdom to perceive when the time calls for it

I will continue to have the courage to trust, as well as striving for the wisdom to know when not to

I will continue to have the courage to over share and to put myself out there and I will continue to have the courage to not give a fuck

I will continue to have the courage to hold my chin high

I will continue to have the courage to resist and rebel what needs to be rebelled against

I will continue to have the courage to dance, when I can summon the energy

I will continue to be courageous

For I am #bebold

Especially when packing Ruby 😉

 

Much Love 

Kirsty