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Losing My Smile

By Kirsty | 27 November 2017

During the first few years of my depression, as it manifested and developed, although I gradually began to exhibit various symptoms and began to veer off the rails somewhat self destructively my image perception and confidence levels remained fairly level. Or as level as they’d ever been.( I can’t bring myself to say ‘healthy’ in…

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When The Worst Comes From Loved Ones

By Kirsty | 26 November 2017

Below is a selection of sentences said to me by a family member who was dear to me, who knowingly did something immensely triggering about 2 1/2 years ago. I don’t believe they did it with the intention to hurt me, they had their own reasons, but there is no doubt that they knew the…

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Seemingly Spoiled

By Kirsty | 24 November 2017

So I’ve read back my last two posts and, probably because I still feel “Up” from this afternoon and my head is clearer I realised I probably sound selfish, spoiled and lazy ”So all she did today was drink coffee, shop and take a shower??? And she’s complaining??? What a cow” The best way I…

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The Rise and Fall

By Kirsty | 24 November 2017

  The Fall So having dropped my daughter off at school this morning I have spent the last hour or so sitting in my local Starbucks doing nothing other than drinking coffee and online shopping (‘Black Friday’ and all that. So basic!). I felt fine when I first went in but now, although the coffees…

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When I Ask For Help

By Kirsty | 23 November 2017

I am not what you’d call a nag or a very demanding person by nature. To be honest I don’t really have to be as I’m lucky enough to be with someone who willingly and without prompting partakes in more than his fair share of the housework, picking up the slack during the times I…

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Having Depression Does Not Mean…

By Kirsty | 22 November 2017

Having Depression Does Not Mean I’m Suicidal I have depression, I am not suicidal. The two do not always go hand in hand, though the media would have everyone believe otherwise. I stress, everyone’s depression is different. Mine is completely devoid of suicidal tendencies. And for that, I confess, I am greatful. Does this make…

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My Depression, Not Yours

By Kirsty | 21 November 2017

First and foremost I want it to be clear that in my writing about what it is like for me to live with depression, I am not speaking for all who suffer with it. Depression is a thing that is very much unique to the individual. It has a vast range of symptoms that can…

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My name is Kirsty and I have Depression…

By Kirsty | 20 November 2017

So, I decided to “come out” publicly about having depression at the beginning of this year after a particularly stressful morning. I had simply had enough of keeping it to myself. Depression was affecting all aspects of my life (it still does of course) and manifesting particular behaviours that were being, I suspected, misinterpreted by…

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